i feel better
i still have no answer
know not where to go
but somehow it will be okay
this i just now know
everything will work
it will all end up just fine
one way or another..
i’ve got to give it time
got to just believe
feel it in my soul
squash all doubt completely
and in my heart, just know
exactly where you need to be
is exactly where you are
look no further for what you seek
for, from you, it sits not far
every answer you have searched for
it is right there too
when you stop reaching
it will all just come to you
enclosed in darkness
radiating light
only one aspiration
to continue the fight
not to give up
not to give in
just to carry on
and say that i did not win
but.. i played my best
outlived all the rest
and gave it all i had
took the good with the bad
never surrendered to the mean angry world
just held my ground
and collected all it viciously hurled
held on tight
so now have it all
it’s time to give back
to answer the call..
Someday life will be just right
no more lonliness at night
someday I will have with me
all i dream of and hope for when I sleep
someday I will be a light
others look to when they’ve lost sight.
Someday I will smile more
for my two feet will reach the shore.
but until this wonderful day
life will go on and i must pray
that someday might just someday arrive
for now it seems
i am just barely alive.
searching everywhere for that one simple thing
reaching and grasping, not finding a thing
thinking your lost, begging to be found
looking and looking, you run all around
you’re desperate, completely, about to give up
find yourself wishing that life could just stop
the answer is simple and your problems are solved
all your anger frustration can easily be resolved
look to yourself, not outside for your strength
your soul can carry you, despite the length
stop searching and the path, you will find
and you will be free, body, soul and mind
rain falls
unconcerned
easily from the sky
to wash away the problems
that around each man do lie
to weigh him down before the throne
to show him just how low is low
to keep on falling
to have no end
to terminate everything
so it can begin again
to force one’s mind from the ground
to lift their head and look around
to see the man with nothing more to lose
carelessly playing in his last pair of shoes
to make one realize that despite his own load
there’s another out there that’s lost in the cold
the clouds appear
a huge storm is near
the drops begin
it seems like it will never end
lightning flashes, thunder roars
everyone closes all their doors
feelings can not be shown
after all, you’re all alone
soon the many clouds will clear
and the end will then be here
it’s true another storm will come
but to live, you have to pull yourself through some
saw the signs
but missed the road
reached the end
but not where I intended to go
Turned around, began again
fearing deep down
another dead end
knowing inside that the trip was a must
and I had to do it
despite the distrust
The sky is dark and lights are dim
lines are long
the road is thin
Cars are few and spread apart
but I will reach my destination
if only I follow my heart
at this moment I am surrounded
pure beauty is falling at my feet
I have found happiness
in the downpour that surrounds me
The pitter-pat of joy’s footsteps on my backporch
The natural light that my ancestors have seen for thousands of years
Yes, I know that tomorrow the sun will beat down once again,
even harder even than it did yesterday
but right now, in this eternal moment
happiness is raining down on me from above
and I am blessed
alone i guess
everyday just like the rest
just a few are better
and just a few are worse
never knowing what to expect
just a day
nothing special to dissect
Follow through with the motions
no distinct questions, no solutions
Everything just happens
never sure exactly why
Then slowly, a tear slips by
bewildered, don’t know why I cry
but yet, I do, and the tears fall free
somehow, amazingly, they bring peace
and for this life of confusion, I am granted partial release
I have fallen
on hard, hard days
and many more are yet to come
but if I overlook small signs of happiness
I will surely drown in all that ails me
at this moment
I am free
released from any ties that bind
by the freedom of the rain
all fears, stumblingblocks and hatred have been washed completely away
and I have the strength to await the many more
that lie along my path
